future balance

If there's anything that I've learned today, it's that I should always think about the future. Of course, we have our fuck-ups in life and sometimes we think "oh it was unavoidable, it's just life," well I think to an extent, most things can be avoided. And if we try everything to prepare to avoid problems in the future, we can at least say "I tried everything I could to be careful in this situation" and also learn from it so that next time it doesn't happen.

That's the mentality of my brother and sister-in-law. They prepare for the future. My brother got into an accident with his Subaru and the guy called my brother at fault, he was suing us for $200,000. Had that settlement went through, our house and mostly everything in it would've been foreclosed. Now that my brother moved out and he pays for everything, including insurance, he has full coverage. Even though, most of the time, him and his wife are really careful. But in the rare event that a car accident does happen, it has the potential to fuck up your whole life and all your assets.

My mentality about life is: "carpe diem," or seize the day. I don't like to think much about the future, it's daunting, I'd rather think about the present and what makes me happy now. My philosophy is that life's short, let's all do what we want while we're alive and young. Of course, I know I need to think about the future too. But the problem is finding that balance. There's always a balance that needs to be maintained. And I'm always on each side of the spectrum.

What is the point of this blog? I don't really know. But I know that I need to maintain balance in terms of everything and not become too attached. That's the way of buddhism. For example, my brother likes to think about the future, therefore he likes to save all his money for "the future." Well in terms of money also, I need to find a balance of saving and spending. Not exactly a 50/50 balance but a balance of budgeting.

So the moral of today: think of the future, but don't forget the present. Of course the future is of importance and I should prepare, but life is too short and I should do what I want. This is a balance I need to maintain. And not just this but a balance in everything would be better also.