empire state of mind

my thin "mighty wallet" was getting fat, i didn't want it to fall apart. so i took everything out and i put it in the bottom of my physics solution manual underneath all my other books.

i had to use my old wallet. oddly enough, after a few days, it felt like "old times." it's like my lucky wallet, except it didn't bring me luck, but instead somehow that old mindset i had in hs, where i felt like i was on top of the world. everytime i look at it though, it reminds me of her. it wasn't mine to begin with. maybe that's why.

nearing the end of sophmore year

so it's almost near the end of the semester and summer is coming soon. i need to work harder than ever to earn summer because it'll feel so more well-deserved. i think this summer i'll be taking 2 classes, csis and bio. i hope i'm not setting myself up for failure. it shouldn't be that hard. bio is online and csis is a hybrid M W class, so i should be able to work more. eh, i can probably work after that class since it's from 8-10 in the morning, i think. i would definitely just take one online class, but my counselor suggested i take csis this summer and i don't know if it's available next winter.

things are going great, school is okay of course, friends are awesome, work is a bit slow, family is the same so-so. i've got nothing to worry about. i have no major problems besides being bored and not having enough money for a car parts. i'm doing fine. i feel content with this semester, having taking some of the hardest classes since i've first entered last year. i pushed myself more this semester than any other and in comparison to others, i look great, but of course when i compare myself to myself and my own standards, i can definitely do better which is what i want. i definitely need to study more for physics. oscillations don't seem bad, but rotational dynamics is a bit of a pain. calculus is alright. splitting integrals of inverse trig functions and implicit derivatives with logs and blah blah.

this summer i have a few plans, not much, but still.

6/? dennis' bday thing
6/17 vegas trip w/ fam
6/29-7/4 AX' 10
7/17 EP crowne pointe meet in SD
7/25? comicon 10
7/28 my bay

also i'm planning to shoot at least one short this summer, it's going to be dramatic. i haven't written a script yet, but it should be good. i'll definitely be playing the piano more with more time to hang out. i want to try new stuff. i want a rode trip, but of course everyone is busy and no one wants to drive, and no one has a job. i hope to build my pc before next fall and i'm going to try to find a few new hobbies, ones that don't destroy my wallet every paycheck.

excited for summer, it should be good this year. but best? i'll soon find out.

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i am frequently annoyed by my family. what the fuck? i'm trying to blah blah blah. and it's so fucking annoying. what the fuck. this is fucking ridiculous. "OH EM GEE." oh please stfu. wtf. i'm so mad, i'm trying to afalkdjflakdjfa;lkdsjf;alkdjf;aldksjf;aldkjf. why can't i just do this in fucking peace? i'm seriously going to murder someone right now.

the "wedge-your-way-in" approach

it always works. i swear. if you want someone to do something for you, you need to wedge your way in. for example, if you want a sc2 beta key, just tell your friend that you want to play it once, then eventually it'll lead to "i'll just play when you're not playing" and then inevitably "it's mine now bitch." first you need to tell them something small, something that'll let you "wedge your way through" into bigger possibilities. slowly over time you can forge your way through to get what you want.

also it's like buttsex. stick it in her butt, at first she'll be like "oh it's in the wrong hole," but you should respond with "no wait, just wait," just keep telling her that and eventually she'll like the idea of buttsecks (true story my friend did this). you need to wedge your penis slowly into her butthole. thus the term i coined, the "wedge-your-way-in" approach.