Inspiration

it seems the older i get, the more i realize that my heroes aren't as great as i've made them out to be. and i've come to a point in my life where i'm not getting any younger and i'm at my prime. my 20s are supposed to be the best years of my life and they definitely are going to be. as i get older, i'm soon starting to realize that i might become like my heroes. as if that's a good thing; more like fallen heroes. i know there are people that look up to me. i can't disappoint. i want to live up to my dreams. if i can inspire someone to do something, even if it's the most trivial thing, then that'll make my day.

such a fucking downer

i hate pessimists. i hate depressing people. i hate people with tons of problems in their life. i hate it when people bring me down with them. i hate it when people rely on me when they have so many other resources.

why do you rely on me so much? i know you have problems/issues at home, but you're old enough to deal with it on you own. how are you in a pinch? why is it that you need to learn to drive manual? it's not that you need to, it's that you want to see me. i find that fucking weird and eccentric beyond anything. i know you just want to get out of your house. so why don't you fucking do it?! fucking pussy. you're 20 now. goddamn why can't you do things for yourself.

granted i know this won't solve all my problems, but i wish i could fucking move already.