Off Beat Day

Today was more eventful than usual. Woke up late this morning. I was supposed to go in to esna at 8:00, woke up at 8:34 AM though. Co-workers and haith family are pretty chill. Left at around 12:00 to go home and get ready for my meeting at WCU with Fabianne and Muffin. The meeting at west coast was alright. The school and nursing in general do not spark any sort of interest. My only motivation for doing nursing is money and also it's only 3 year, plus I can do it with Fabianne and Muffin (has its perks). Downside is that I'd fucking hate it probably (doing nursing) and paying off the $100,000 loan. Our advisor/counselor was pretty fucking annoying. It was alright until she called me the shy one. WTF makes people instantly think that I'm the shy one. In comparison to fabuffin, yes. Okay, so I lied about my GPA, but she said even that wasn't good enough. Although the building is nice and the people are nice (can be nice anyway), I don't like the vibe there. IDK why I'm fucking complaining. Though I don't think it'd be for me. Ultimately, I'd want to do something that I love, while helping others. I don't mind stressful situations, hospitals don't have a good vibe. At least to me anywayy. Surguries, deaths, injuries, what else? Those are all negative situations. The only positive thing in a hospital is birth. Birth is a good thing indeed. If I were to work in a specific area of a hospital, it'd be birth, for sure. Then blah blah blah, day went on, etc.

Okay, so I still haven't broke out of my shell. It's a work in progress. WTF am I supposed to do. Complaining ain't going to do shit, though I should at least address my problems. Thinking and responding critically are things I'm so-so at, maybe not even so-so, maybe just really bad. But before I can address that, I have to brake out of my shell, which essentially means to be comfortable, open, and a regular converser. I do think before I open my mouth, which may be a good thing, but also a bad thing. I tend to not spew stupid shit, "tend", which means still I do say stupid stuff. Also, this makes me a quiet person because I'm actively thinking. Thinking part, good, being quiet, bad. So I think I pretty much answered my question. I should be more conversing and talkative because I still say stupid shit, but now people will know me and my personality a little more. Okay, so now that that's out of the way, let's get to critical thinking. Typing out things makes me be more comprehensive, that is, being able to be more understandable while getting all of my thoughts out. Blogging feels good, therapeutic actually. Things to make me more critical in thinking: flowing/rapping, saying what I feel before thinking about how to word it, and? I also feel intimidated kind of with so many people that "have" the potential of being funnier and/or smarter than me, which has its perks.