Thanksgiving Break FTW

I'm at Adura's dorm right now. It's nice that he's letting us sleep over. I know for sure I wouldn't do the same, I owe him one. Just in case I forget, I'll remember from here. Soo yesterday my debate teacher said that my paper lacked detail. That got me thinking that I lack detail in general. I don't talk much, I just say what matters. I don't want to open my mouth and say stupid shit. Also I try not to act as stupid as possible. For example, my friends will be talking about a mexican riding a bike near Molca Salsa and they will be bagging on that nigger constantly with obscure detail. I won't add much to that conversation. I don't add much unless it's relevant to me somehow, or it's a big issue in today's world. I guess that's a good thing, but I need to TALK MOAR! I've yet to brake out of my shell. WTF man?!

Though on a much unrelated note, I also figure that I need to think critically more. Things that help are blogging (of course, daily ramblings, not the usual tumblr articles), flowing, and always thinking of funny situations. Blogging releases all of my thoughts. The private blogs at least. I'm always worried about what I say or what I do. I'm afraid of what people will think of me. Or that they'll think that I'm not funny or cool. I try to avoid all of that by not opening my mouth unless it's imperative or important. For example, if my friends are talking about medical shit, I won't be tempted to jump into the conversation because I know that I don't know shit about it, also it's not directly relevant to me. Also I'm just shy as fcuk. I'm afraid to admit it too because sometimes I believe I really am the "cool" one. Wow that was a ramble. Flowing of course helps because it helps me organize my thoughts and sound cool and think on my feet. When I flow, I focus on a subject and I am actively thinking to try to find words that rhythm, also finding words relevant to the subject at hand. This is why a lot of rappers are English majors and they're also debaters.

adfkajdlfkajdkfblahblahblah tiadflakdjfaldkjfa;lkdf i don't even care ajkldjalk these thoughts are not organized so yeah hm i liek this song for sure. but i don't know the words. hmmm these are definitely sex songs, or songs to make love too. but i wouldn't want to have sexual intercourse with a girl with a guy singing the song, weird no? if it's a cheesy r&b song, even worse. ugh. music during sex is definitely a no. would it help amp up the sexualness? probably, but for my preference, i wouldn't want it playing in the back. but this song may prove me wrong.