Necessary Evil

There are some things in life that you must give into. Social networks is one of them. You must give into social networks, if you don't have to, but they are a necessary evil if you are to stay connected with all your friends. I realize that I'm not as connected with my friends when I'm not relying on txting, twitter, or facebook. It's pretty sad actually because it's not just on my part, but theres also. Since I've started this defragmentation only one person has called me and that has been Fabianne; that's only because he's also defragging his life. Unfortunately, I haven't been outside since my Kwanzaa celebration as Adura's dorm. I am losing faith in myself and humanity. We are relying too much on technology for our relationships.

My friends have still been sending me useless txt messages that don't matter, thus I don't call them, but they probably think I don't find them important. Slowly but surely, my friendships will people are deteriorating. I absolutely need to txt! But it's alright, I can manage. I just need to stop being a pussy and call people. Since I started this 3 days ago, I've called 3 people. Adura, Danny and Kyle. Fabianne called me once when I was driving, I forgot to get back to him. I need to connect with these people. I don't really seem interested in hanging out with Fabianne, only because well, it's Fabianne. I don't want to spend money, I don't want to waste my time, I don't want to do bullshit and pick up on my friend's bad habits of eating unhealthy (despite their efforts of trying to lose weight, which is fail).

On top of everything, I've been having dreams about her. I don't know why, but I definitely shouldn't be thinking about her. This shit has to stop. I will be seeing humanity tomorrow (or at least some of it) at school. Thank goodness.