assumptions

i've come to the realization that i always assume. always and it's a bad habit because it will bite me in the ass later and it usually does. but it's usually small things which lead to big things later. but in general it's just a good habit to never assume and always think of the possible situations. i guess it can be a good and bad thing, more cons than pros though. for instance, one of my exes was young and she didn't go out much, i assumed she didn't have a life and didn't do much. i thought i would have a big influence on her, but not much really. i wanted to have sex with her, but of course with her being the youngest, she learned from her family that she should wait. point is, i thought i knew her, but i really didn't. i made the assumption that i could influence her when in reality i couldn't. that's just one example, but assumptions sometimes get mixed with exaggerations and can become problematic.

anyway, also i've come to realize that i don't like to fix things. i like to leave things the way they are. example 1: hs, i liked to move on to other courses when i failed the previous one. i failed precalc because makrova had a silly uncomprehensible russian accent and she sucked at teaching, but i moved onto mrs. hu who had an even more worse chinese accent and she sucked even more at teaching calculus since it was her first time. i had planned to name more situations but the list goes on. anyway hopefully these realizations/bad habbits will be fixed as i only blog to remind myself of these and reflect upon my day.