every time i see her, it's like a shotgun blast to the heart. every time i see something that reminds me of her, it's like my heart is being stabbed repeatedly. every time i scroll the contact list and come across her name, i'm reminded of all the good times we've had and how we threw it all away. every time i see a status update of hers, i fucking cringe, worry if she's alright, and hope that one day, maybe just one day, we'll be together again.

i was the most vulnerable with her. i let down my walls so easily, the walls of emotion. i let her into my heart, she had access to it. i trusted her. but with that trust also comes the possibility of pain and hurt, which i'm starting to see more as an inevitability than just a mere possibility. how do you cope with this? of course, i can't forget, as hard as i try, something will remind me of her. i will only be fine when i'm not thinking about her.