Torn Between Worlds

I have been indoctrinated -since birth- to believe in God. But the more I learn about Astrophysics and Physics in general, the more I test my faith. I can't live like this. I am torn between two worlds. I'm particularly interested in the string theory and quantum mechanics. A unified theory to explain electromagnetism, weak forces, strong forces, and gravity all in one. Something that Einstein failed to finish when he died. Is the string theory possible? Is there a theory of everything? The more I find that it is hard to pursue, the more I want to pursue it -as crazy as it sounds-. I have never been known to be a math wizard or someone that seeks truth, but this time, JUST THIS TIME, I want to pursue it. Many physicist are ridiculed for studying theoretical physics. What's the point? We're onto something, I know it. I know that Einstein's work wasn't in vain, there must be some truth to it. And in 1984, the whole string theory was revised and proved. 496 was the number. What happened to all the anomalies? I want to know these things. But I want to be a truth seeker, not just a scientist. But to achieve this goal, I have to realize the truth, I have to throw away my faith. I have to throw away everything that I've believed since birth. Is that the only way? It goes against what I believe. I am torn between two worlds. I like to hold onto my faith, it gives me sanity, it gives me something to hold onto, it gives me a constant in my life, it gives me ethics. God (personal God), please, if you exist, show me, give me proof. If not, God (Einstein's version), let me pursue the truth of our world and universe beyond. Einstein once said that "The most incomprehensible thing about our world is that IT IS COMPREHENSIBLE." There is a possibility for everything, no limitations. If there's a will, there is a way.